tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-86884293012541085882024-03-13T09:50:12.265-07:00A Seeker's JourneyJoey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.comBlogger21125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-41573821873198692652013-01-11T11:13:00.002-08:002013-01-11T11:31:16.769-08:00What I learned in 2012<style>
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<u><b><span style="font-size: large;">What did I learn in 2012?</span></b></u></div>
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Every year is filled with so many moments, choices,
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*Adventure is not only right around the corner it’s in every
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*Moving on doesn’t mean erasing what existed</div>
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*Saying yes creates so many more opportunities and
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*Abandoned buildings are so much fun to play in</div>
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*Space from someone doesn’t have to mean forever</div>
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*Closure doesn’t have to be complicated or painful</div>
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*Conscious breathing brings a stillness deeper than me</div>
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*There’s something very peaceful and powerful about walking
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*I really don’t have control and when I yield to this I find
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*I have some of the most incredible friends I could ever ask
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*The ocean stills my soul like no other</div>
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*I know how to take care of ME best</div>
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*Playing as a kid is when my soul feels the most free</div>
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*Some people you don’t ever stop missing… and that’s okay</div>
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I wonder what 2012 taught you? What was it that was revealed
to you in the in-between moments? What do you want to take with you and what do
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Who knows what 2013 will bring, but I’m not holding my
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The energy I hope to bring in 2013 is one of service and
connection.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As well as an ownership of
the power that’s within me that I too often disown.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What energy are you hoping to usher into the
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May 2013 reveal to you what it is you need to see and may
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Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-82910639425961875472012-03-15T22:28:00.003-07:002012-03-15T22:49:27.229-07:00I see ME: See YOU<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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My client's often ask me about me, and though I'll disclose through story after story... what often surprises me is their surprise or rather relief.. in learning that I make mistakes.. that I feel depressed some days... that I feel angry... that some days I don't 'feel' like getting out of bed... that I struggle... that sometimes I just feel crazy... some days I just feel like everything is against me... but wait...didja catch that? The key word here is 'feel' and though I 'feel' like that - it doesn't mean I AM that.... all it means is <i><b>I'm human.... and so are they... we all have so much in common with a million different ways of expressing our uniqueness or sameness (you choose)</b></i><br />
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I'm not different than them... and I'm not different than YOU...and nor are you from ME but something appears or feels different in their time with me.... maybe it's because I've learned how to sit in my own pain which allows me to sit in theirs... maybe it's because I've learned that judgment does nothing but separate and so they feel the freedom to share anything knowing they won't be judged... maybe it's because I've given myself compassion and acceptance that they too feel compassion and acceptance from me... maybe it's because I believe that we are all ONE... maybe it's because I've accepted who I am and am comfortable in my skin.. but the truth is... I'm human... and the magiK I feel and live ... is because I've learned and am learning (always in a state of evolving) to go through the pain... to trust myself... to believe in ME... and to know that I know that I know that everything I need is already inside of me... EVERYTHING! Maybe it's that I've fallen in love with the process... or maybe it's that I find the seeking is the journey... maybe it's because I've realized there is no there - only HERE... maybe it's because I've felt judged, misunderstood, neglected, abused, invisible, not good enough, betrayed - and yet<b> I've found the beauty rise from the ash in each of these. </b> Maybe it's because I finally learned to love and see me... and accept that this life is messy... and oh so beautiful... sometimes even more so because of the mess :)<br />
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so seeing life through my lens.....<br />
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I like questions. I like discovering. I like connecting. I like being connected. I like knowing and I like the unknown. I like to travel. I like to explore. I like to play. I like to be intense. I like to look beneath what's seen...I like colors. I believe life is colorful when I choose to truly see. I believe in magiK - the kind that brings aliveness to my world. I like feeling -I like feeling even when I don't feel happy. I believe everything is my teacher. I believe my greatest teachers have come out of my pain. I like living the paradox... <br />
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things I dislike or make me sad::::: I dislike long lines... having to deal with an automated system for any reason on the phone.... canceled flights.... stepping in gum... sticky things on my fingers... (unless it's glue and then get to pick it off)... rudeness ... setting the clock back for daylight savings... misunderstandings... closed minds----> (and I feel sad about this)... being so far away from my family... power trips... rushed dinners... knowing someone is stuck in their fears ----> (this makes me feel sad too)... having to stop for gas... being cut off when driving... oooooh oooh or when I wait for the 'perfect' parking spot and then someone snags right in front of me - bah! I mean.. really?!? --ha!<br />
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and in the 'more' I can tell you this:::::: I'm left handed and love to create anytime and chance I get in
whatever form that may take. Both my parents were from England so that
meant growing up I spent my summer's in England - I had an English
accent until I was 5 and yet somehow I let that fade into an American blended accent - which really means...no accent. My friends say I'm intense - and I
am. I think it's because I prefer authenticity and realness and depth
over the surface and mindless talk. I love fall colors and leaves
changing - what I miss most about the East Coast, but I don't miss the
cold one bit. I
like rainy days only when they're surrounded by days of sun and one of
my favorite things is getting all curled up in blankets, drinking tea,
watching movies, while I hear the rain fall outside....but I'd pick a
day outside over any day inside...I love being in nature and getting
lost or rather being present with what's in front of me. I like the
light as much as the dark and find my creativity comes from playing with
the contrast between the two. I like shadows from light and believe in
the integration of my light and shadow self. I love art and expression
especially when it comes from the soul. I don't tend to follow the
'typical' path and it appears I make a habit of creating my own way. I
pursue things even more when I'm told it can't happen or it seems
impossible and usually find a way to make the supposed impossible come
into being. I've traveled around the world and don't want to stop. I've been told
most my life that I'm an old soul and believe it to be true. I like
the little things and you'd find that everything I have in my room comes
with a story. I'm sentimental and my memory is ridiculous - both a
gift and a curse at times. Both my parents were/are geniuses - aka
Scientists...my father was a microbiologist and my mom a biochemist. It
skipped both my sister and I...and my subjects became people as I have
always found myself fascinated and intrigued by people.. by their fears... by the way someone talks...walks.. responds...reacts... expresses ONESELF...we are such unique creatures yes sometimes have fallen to conformity... I know I do at times.. even though I like to think I'm a non conformist. I don't like
being in crowds and prefer one on one or smaller groups for
connection...but put me in a crowd and let me watch and I am a happy
happy girl. I love to love and feel my love is deep simply because I've
felt pain and know loss.<br />
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I share all this knowing we are one in the same.. and this is simply my expression of ME - What's your expression of YOU? <br />
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May you enjoy the discovery of Seeing ~ YOU <br />
And may you have the courage to express authentic YOU! <br />
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love love love<br />
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It's the beginning of another year. Every new beginning opens a door for much reflection...Many of us reflect on the past to see where it's taken us. Many of us venture into reminiscing about the past year and the years before that as if we're searching for a key to our existence, or finding a way to freeze that moment of happiness. There is much we can learn about the past, our pasts, as each moment we have lived has been there as a messenger for us to evolve into who we really are. The trick however, is not to live in our memories or to live in our pasts, but rather to awaken this very moment that holds everything we can possibly know and feel. My past year was full of <i><b>'much'.</b></i>.. much love, much heartache, much laughter, much sadness, much happiness, much aloneness, much releasing, much acceptance... none of these good... none of these bad... and ALL the much of what I needed for that time, for that place, and for that part of me to evolve into that something <i><b>'more'.</b></i><br />
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In this moment I carry with me a gratitude for my past, for all of those that have come into my life as well as those that came for only a season... as a messenger to my soul. As I look into my heart there is an excitement of what is brewing into this year of what this year will awaken in me. There's so much I want to experience, so much I want to feel, so much that I want to LIVE and breathe in each and every moment. <br />
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Each year I set up a set of intentions and goals for my year as a way of breathing them into existence. <br />
2012 is an "8" year for me - a year of abundance, a year of manifestation. <b><i>Sidenote: If you're interested in knowing what your current year is, please contact me with your birthdate and I'll be happy to share: <a href="mailto:seekingthejourney@gmail.com">email me</a>. </i></b>My desire is to experience the abundance fully by simply allowing each moment to be alive.<br />
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<u><b><i>Intentions:</i></b></u></div>
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Speak my truth without compromise</div>
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A spiritual journey to Peru</div>
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Listen to my body:</div>
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Become aware and intentional of what I put into my body</div>
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Allow for consistent movement - running, tennis, yoga, soccer, softball</div>
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Begin a consistent practice of Yoga</div>
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Deepen my meditation practice</div>
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Meet new friends that are like-minded</div>
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Open more to my spiritual gifts</div>
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Further Shaman training</div>
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Begin learning Reiki</div>
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Expand my photography business</div>
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Expand A Seeker's Journey</div>
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Explore the inner workings of my dreams </div>
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Give back... </div>
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One new Country</div>
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One new State</div>
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Read at least 12 books</div>
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Make 3 new friends</div>
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Cross one more item off of my bucket list<br />
Certified in Reiki I and II</div>
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Run my 2nd 5k</div>
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Go see Marianne Williamson</div>
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Create a couple of vision boards</div>
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Get involved with Voice Dialogue/dream work</div>
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Develop a consistent practice of writing out my dreams </div>
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<u>Photography:</u></div>
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Have my photography shown in an event</div>
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Take a couple of photography classes</div>
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<u>A Seeker's Journey:</u></div>
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Increase Workshops</div>
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Increase Clients</div>
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Create something new out of it</div>
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What are your intentions? What are your goals? What does 2012 hold for you? What has the past taught you so that you can be fully present ~~~~~~~~~NOW!<br />
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<br />Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-8390107225538806102011-10-25T17:47:00.000-07:002011-10-25T17:47:20.852-07:00Openings:::light::::dark<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The last couple of weeks I have been drawn to shades of color... to the light and dark... to seeing the impact light has on shadows... to openings and closings of doors... and all that lies in between. Here are a few visual expressions of this exploring.... Sit with each one and let the words sink into you...and also allow anything else that wants to be spoken to you. There are a million questions behind each image, the beauty is finding which one is speaking to you.<br />
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****all pictures copyright Joey Paynter 2011****</div>Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-40050809318696514942011-10-10T19:08:00.000-07:002011-10-10T19:08:19.138-07:00Seeing Underneath<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Over the past few days I have continued to seek and see what is around me waiting to speak... or rather waiting for me to listen. There is an opening deep within my soul at every reflection... at every moment. The beauty is when we stop and look... look into the simplicity... look into all that is staring back at us... and there... there we might just find more pieces of us...more pieces of you...more pieces of me... as we are all <b>ONE.</b></div>
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There is magiK all around us.... keep breathing in the moments and allow truth to speak to you about YOU. </div>
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Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-36228360716559485852011-10-05T13:25:00.000-07:002011-10-05T13:39:44.519-07:00Listening in the stillness<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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These past few days I have come completely alive in the capturing of images. It's more than just taking the pictures... it's in allowing the picture to become and evolve into more and as I do it's then about listening to what is being spoken to me. I have found even though the setting for these pictures are the same the messages being spoken to me are new everytime.<br />
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See if when you look at these images if there's something new that's wanting to be spoken to you. What questions are maybe being asked to you or of you as you quietly listen for what the image is holding??? The words I have shared are simply words that are spoken to me....and yet as I keep looking in I find that more is being offered back to me. <br />
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Would love to hear what it is these pictures speak to you!<br />
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Enjoy seeing what is within<br />
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<br />Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-88078661226946784762011-10-03T11:51:00.000-07:002011-10-03T11:53:07.296-07:00October ~ letting life speak<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This month I have decided that each day I am going to take pictures and see what life has to speak to me. I'm not sure where this will lead or what will evolve out of each picture, but today as I was uploading my images I felt words coming to mind for each picture. So have a look see and let me know which one is your favorite. Not to mention see what's waiting for you to uncover in this month of October.<br />
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<br />Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-85060742667697171752011-09-30T10:32:00.000-07:002011-10-01T16:56:21.141-07:00Re-Lease<b><br /></b>
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Sometimes life is just uncomfortable or rather sometimes I'm just uncomfortable with life. I say this because last month presented me with a lot of change. A lot of unexpected change. As much as I like taking risks I have to admit, change and I have often had our rubs, especially when I'm caught off guard by it and when I didn't even know one was necessary. Just when I find my self settling in something changes. But what is that? What about me wants to 'settle in'? Settle into what exactly?? Settling feels as if I'm choosing what's comfortable and wanting to remain there simply because I'm afraid of????? being uncomfortable??? pain??? loss??? Where is this notion though that change instantly means discomfort... where has my mind attached to the belief that change is uncomfortable and has to include pain??? What about the fact that change brings newness, it provides an opportunity for new life, for something to be birthed. Change allows for growth, and growth and evolving is something I deeply value. The process of it might at times feel daunting, but what if the actual change wasn't approached with fear or resistance, but rather with an opening for what's to come. What if it's Approached with an embracing instead of a fearing?? <br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGkEDXhiavmq5wjLsxUcDqzqj2kgzhXg5DPXqUs9nlWJjlEV04gli_cOmqg9dYXjJOhMGZaDm60yuE-D36kAMCoUTfMuMBMsJSwnKgETUmkGJskaYhh_FIkt2jJnicoRgmYOca_vWxwf2d/s1600/IMG_4718.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGkEDXhiavmq5wjLsxUcDqzqj2kgzhXg5DPXqUs9nlWJjlEV04gli_cOmqg9dYXjJOhMGZaDm60yuE-D36kAMCoUTfMuMBMsJSwnKgETUmkGJskaYhh_FIkt2jJnicoRgmYOca_vWxwf2d/s320/IMG_4718.jpg" width="179" /></a>I've learned in life that resistance is where the gold of our being remains hidden.... waiting for a release. I've learned to ask the questions when resistance arises and to see what is in my heart, and what my soul is truly searching for. What is it about letting go that causes me to want to cling more?? So what is this resistance to change??? It's fear. And what I know of fear.. is that it keeps me from discovering what my heart is wanting to evolve into. It's my attachments to the external defining me and providing me with a sense of security. And yet all it really is.. is an illusion of security.<br />
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You see it is these questions not the answer that allows for revealing,
that provides the opening. So if I look and feel the questions.... change is happening and that change is allowing acceptance and an opening for more.<br />
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I might resist and fight that change, but ultimately I know I want that more... more of me, more of what's possible, and more of life. I know that this involves facing what I fear... and allowing the re-lease to come without controlling or attaching to the outcome. <br />
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So what did I do... I entered in. I entered into a series of releases and letting go's. Oh if only there were a formula - ha! I wouldn't like that though. Truth is I like the mystery and I like the unknown, filled with all it's beauty and wonder. It's the courage to venture into the unknown and allow what needs to unfold to simply unfold.<br />
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I danced with release this last month and in this last month I know space is being made within me, within my being, within my soul for something new. <br />
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The release for me took on the form of letting go of those in my life that have moved on from this world. My brother, who died over 28 years ago and my father who passed away two years ago. It's not that there is necessarily a daily clinging to them, but what I know is that I found myself fearing being left, being abandoned, being alone, being unseen. I know myself enough as well as patterns to know that these wounds rest in the initial pain of loss. So I wanted to honor the gifts that were given to me in this loss and allow for a moving not on but into..... into what I don't know... but that's the beauty... it's into something... something that allows for more... more love. <br />
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The beginning of this release started with my sister and I's journey back to the east coast by releasing our dad's ashes. We had a beautiful ceremony out here at a beach in California and 3, 000 miles later we released the remaining ashes on the East Coast. To put it simply it was beautiful. The release was of his ashes but that release was filled with an integration of who our dad was and who he is to us today. It was remembering as well as living in it with him on this day. <br />
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While I was home there was more releasing for me to do... I felt it was time to honor the loss of my brother--- who to me as a child was also 'my baby'... and so that is exactly what I did. I had a ceremony and allowed the gift of his life to emerge clearer in my soul. My words can't do justice to the experience, but maybe the pictures will allow for more of the feelings to be shared.<br />
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This re-lease I entered into is more a release of the story I attached to of pain and suffering involved with love. What I found in this release was compassion and acceptance for what was and what is knowing that love still remains. What is there for you to release to allow for more to be birthed in you??? What opening is there waiting to be seen by you??<br />
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<br />Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-63239682643508390062011-04-29T17:33:00.000-07:002011-04-29T17:57:01.309-07:00APRIL: It's never too late, right? ;)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOs_K17KvEZljbwvtpTx7O4Kgu4aJ1paIXuDzWmbb4Ejgq6UQtUAaqQLeZ6xbi4Ac5BfG6olRzMYZrSlxqIgbwxe8Osq8aBPf9h8Kmb9xVXcn7tUO60EwyS_izFBl-CfEaHF2NPHU7XPxQ/s1600/happines_1427015c.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="250" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOs_K17KvEZljbwvtpTx7O4Kgu4aJ1paIXuDzWmbb4Ejgq6UQtUAaqQLeZ6xbi4Ac5BfG6olRzMYZrSlxqIgbwxe8Osq8aBPf9h8Kmb9xVXcn7tUO60EwyS_izFBl-CfEaHF2NPHU7XPxQ/s400/happines_1427015c.jpg" width="400" /></a></div><br />
Considering today is April 29th and I have yet to post anything about my April journey I figured today is just as good of a day as any to share what this month has been about for me. Originally this month was going to be::::: NO COMPLAINING:::::: but let's be honest I just wasn't ready to take on this challenge just yet <<<<stay tuned on this one>>>><br />
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I was honestly a bit too distracted away from my goal of no complainig on the actual day and realized at that point that I had no idea how much I had been complaining. So then I changed my goal to writing every day.... and although I have kept with this there wasn't much interest in sharing it.... I think the most interesting part of my 30 day challenge this month has been staring in the mirror and saying I love you <Joey> several times and then continue to look into the mirror at ME for a couple of minutes.<br />
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I know it might sound a little 'odd' or maybe too familiar to the Saturday night live skit back in the day where he would look in the mirror and say "I’m smart enough, I’m strong enough, and gosh darn it … people like me!" you can watch it here-----> <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DIETlxquzY">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DIETlxquzY</a>.... I will say this though... don't knock this exercise until you try it.<br />
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It's actually quite an unusual and at times awkward experiment. This is really interesting to me because it's me that I'm looking at in the mirror and yet something about looking at me and saying I love you brings out a discomfort in me. What is it that I am so afraid to see? What is it that I am so afraid to hear?<br />
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I live with me... all the time.... but yet to acknowledge me while actually looking at me...sheesh now that stirs something up.... to truly be 'seen' by ME <br />
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In doing this little exercise the truth is each day I noticed a subtle difference... I began to become more comfortable at looking at myself and truly seeing the the person behind the reflection. Not only did I become comfortable but I began to notice me more...and with that noticing how compassion and acceptance began to seep in.<br />
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So I leave you with this.... GO... try it... stare in the mirror at yourSELF and say "I love you .........."(your name) and then just look for several minutes at the person staring back at you. You might just be surprised at the stranger staring back or maybe you'll start to fall in love with the extraordinary creation you are... either way it's worth it to have a look and simply "see".Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-79199401640894362012011-03-12T17:56:00.000-08:002011-03-12T17:56:56.850-08:00March: All about Nature<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMLohUwJXrBk7KJzFvKbg0u3OiPKU_HkjPVArgUZhKMcLNyiIRJQXszBJOumeP475qhD3cm4AlY_MMq5XUPIskqzO9hzPjdD6XSihvornuF5SYM1NtpquVDmkMu4sdB2Tke4DOMSm4QvBK/s1600/DSC_0730.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="212" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhMLohUwJXrBk7KJzFvKbg0u3OiPKU_HkjPVArgUZhKMcLNyiIRJQXszBJOumeP475qhD3cm4AlY_MMq5XUPIskqzO9hzPjdD6XSihvornuF5SYM1NtpquVDmkMu4sdB2Tke4DOMSm4QvBK/s320/DSC_0730.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="sqq" style="color: black;"> </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><b><span class="sqq" style="color: black;">“<a class="sqq" href="">If nature were not beautiful, it would not be worth knowing, and if nature were not worth knowing, life would not be worth living</a>”</span></b></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="sqq" style="color: black;"> </span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgishnibRoq_y6PAf4V8NZm0dA7zsVYpkVorqI3IEtPB0kLlsfs0Xi0PHat__qDDcAjUrflmtknFi-zSjUUPTIITa_8N8cXXdAbqjpubZU6aAyK4oemu_Okeo90fhyphenhyphenBwDU8QfqWdcNKHje7/s1600/IMG_1101.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgishnibRoq_y6PAf4V8NZm0dA7zsVYpkVorqI3IEtPB0kLlsfs0Xi0PHat__qDDcAjUrflmtknFi-zSjUUPTIITa_8N8cXXdAbqjpubZU6aAyK4oemu_Okeo90fhyphenhyphenBwDU8QfqWdcNKHje7/s320/IMG_1101.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>March is the month of connecting with nature. <br />
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I absolutely love the outdoors and have always been moved by water...the woods... the moon...the sun... the trees.... I find that this is how I connect the most. I believe there is so much to be felt in life... and too often it's easy to get stuck in a routine or stuck inside instead of venturing out and enjoying the beauty that is simply right in my backyard. <br />
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My intent is to spend at least 30 minutes in nature every day... whether this be simply reading outside in my backyard, venturing for some walks/hikes in the back bay, trips to the beach, or simply walks outside enjoying the fresh air. In this time I want to be intentional to take it all in... to really listen to what's being communicated... to me.. to life... and what in me has something to share back. <br />
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What would happen if you just gave 30 minutes today and went outside?? I wonder what is waiting for you??? I wonder what truths are waiting to be shared with you?? Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-78105352968382328252011-03-12T17:36:00.000-08:002011-03-12T17:36:44.801-08:00Reflecting on February<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJqRi82_eVycQpub4t_Vhyphenhyphen9h-MvS2n_nkWcapsI8qvoBqdE3nkst4Xo90wpCp5y5a-ttjTkh17HNY3K_1QF3twKmgdtVFdP_3wNF4QQZK6nLocWHh4gHF9PizvI3tGA3-NrA0vCGRHnzxt/s1600/moons-reflection-2-water.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJqRi82_eVycQpub4t_Vhyphenhyphen9h-MvS2n_nkWcapsI8qvoBqdE3nkst4Xo90wpCp5y5a-ttjTkh17HNY3K_1QF3twKmgdtVFdP_3wNF4QQZK6nLocWHh4gHF9PizvI3tGA3-NrA0vCGRHnzxt/s320/moons-reflection-2-water.jpg" width="248" /></a></div><br />
February has come and gone.... but the impacts of this month have carried on into March for me. It was the month to meditate and drink green smoothies and that's exactly what I did. I even bought books on meditation as well as cd's with meditative visualizations. <br />
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Over the past two years I've started to open up more and more to meditations... in fact last September I went on a three day vision quest out in Montana... where talk about meditation:::sheesh... the connection I felt to the trees, the wind, the ground, the sky, the moon::: absolutely beautiful.... granted I was in a very deep meditative state for hours upon end... but this type of meditation I believe can be experienced on a day to day on various different levels. <br />
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In this month I think what I learned the most was how my natural inclination is to resist and in that resisting I am going against the natural flow of life... to the stillness that rests in those quiet places. I think I often fear that the stillness will allow me to feel the chaos, but in actual fact the stillness and quietness brings connection.... once I allow the spinning of my mind to just spin .... therein in opens another part of me that is truly able to 'see'. This is the place I want to live from.... this is the place where my aliveness resides. <br />
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I experimented with so many different ways of meditation<br />
* repeating one word over and over for 15 min<br />
* using a cd for a guided visualization<br />
* focusing on my breathing<br />
* just sitting and seeing what comes up<br />
* walking meditation in the back bay<br />
* naming my thoughts<br />
* focusing on just one word<br />
* sitting in different places<br />
* mantra meditation<br />
* Being mindful of the moment<br />
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These are just a few of the different methods and ways I entered into the stillness. <br />
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In regards to the green smoothies::: I truly recommend this to anyone that is looking to simply make a small change in their regular eating habits. The rewards to this small change are GREAT! I could feel myself having more energy throughout the day and I really liked knowing what I was putting in my body was sooooo healthy for me. <br />
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There are so many different recipes to try...<br />
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1 coconut :: water and meat<br />
2 bananas<br />
1 cup of strawberries<br />
2 cups of spinach<br />
and a lil bit of parsley<br />
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I think my least favorite<br />
was a mix of lemon, parsley, apple, avocado, and kale...... bananas were added to try and save the taste::: didn't work too well<br />
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I started by saying that even though my goal for February was to complete 30 days of meditation and green smoothies... I'm really happy that this is also being carried into March with a slight variation. I have actually entered into a 10 day master cleanse... and am currently on day 5. Once I finish the 10 days I am going to continue on with the green smoothies. I have also continued with the meditations and am finding a greater sense of clarity within self... and LIFE! Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-25374555144393276402011-02-11T15:42:00.000-08:002011-02-11T15:45:19.922-08:00*Distractions*<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIVvgU7t__quvKHjGSzbLK1GsR9kbMWA8BsqqFQr6S724a9YQumKN93fK7j-Glhr7pjnZxG7hzPM8UrJB_qymjGVOmHEb2wTHuRjf9aqDY_3jJ2ui8sqR8W1GZQYwq21c8Qo4m_5egAhqB/s1600/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIVvgU7t__quvKHjGSzbLK1GsR9kbMWA8BsqqFQr6S724a9YQumKN93fK7j-Glhr7pjnZxG7hzPM8UrJB_qymjGVOmHEb2wTHuRjf9aqDY_3jJ2ui8sqR8W1GZQYwq21c8Qo4m_5egAhqB/s1600/images.jpg" /></a></div><br />
What is it about meditating that causes me to think of<span style="background-color: #666666;"> </span><span style="background-color: #666666; color: #ffd966;">a million other things </span>to do. I was just getting ready to meditate when I thought maybe I'll get something to eat...so I went to the kitchen rummaging thru the pantry and fridge...ten minutes later I'm back in my room... once again just about to meditate and I think wait?!... did I enter all my bills from this week into a spreadsheet?? (yes, I really do that)...ok now I got that taken care of it was now time to meditate... but of course just before I got up from my desk I saw on a post it note by my computer a reminder to write in my sister's birthday card, so of course I did that even though her birthday is still ten days away.... now is it time to meditate??? nope not quite... I'll quickly run to the restroom and then I'll start... but when I'm leaving the bathroom I notice my eyebrows::: much in need of a good plucking... which I honestly dread doing. This then led to me moisturizing my hands and then looking through what lotions I could potentially get rid of. I'm not kidding you...<span style="color: #ffd966;"> this is really my process.</span>.which has taken me well over 30 minutes...when I've only set out to meditate for 15 min... maybe I could turn this around and say:::: pre meditating turns me into a very very productive girl with things that don't really need to get done this very minute.... now if only I could find a way to get that to work to my advantage. <br />
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</div><div style="color: #ffd966;">So... are you wondering if I ever got around to meditating?!?</div><br />
well once again just before I was going to sit down on the floor in my spot to meditate, my sister walked in the room telling me of all her errands and happenings of the day....<br />
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BUT then finally, after my sister left the room, I got up from my desk and felt drawn outside. I found a spot outside that drew me in and I began to meditate. After 15 min my timer from my phone went off, which normally I'd end my time there... but this time I grabbed my phone and set it for another 15 min... I was just simply::: <span style="color: #ffd966;">*NOT* DONE!! </span><br />
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I felt such a peace and calmness over me.... trees and leaves filled my vision as I meditated on<br />
<span style="color: #ffd966;">*love*</span> and near the end of the meditation my dad entered my vision and I got to spend some time with him as if it were just yesterday that he were still alive. A smile came over my face and the warmth of the sun was hitting my back:::I felt a <span style="color: #ffd966;">true deep embrace.</span><br />
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So what makes me avoid the stillness, the peace, the connection??? What am I busying myself to avoid... it just doesn't make sense that I'd want to avoid this warmth and peace that I feel. Am I really so conditioned by my mind towards distraction or is my mind the one afraid of that release?? ;)<br />
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Quick smoothie update.....<br />
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjETGSlG91bggyKXZuyy3c4OUKcgNWt1u4L99IkzPLrcxm3B1C6-uJeD-_NGOvSK78lvWV9wOCl40RmZ-mFhwLyr-pZ-A6cUc2oku3t4BumVJ3Td6bUQ4rCoeq7cf4mIKxDtzOX5OWx9aGP/s1600/Fruit.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjETGSlG91bggyKXZuyy3c4OUKcgNWt1u4L99IkzPLrcxm3B1C6-uJeD-_NGOvSK78lvWV9wOCl40RmZ-mFhwLyr-pZ-A6cUc2oku3t4BumVJ3Td6bUQ4rCoeq7cf4mIKxDtzOX5OWx9aGP/s200/Fruit.jpg" style="cursor: move;" width="150" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWXU2pY5Cu-GDRqbyiCvDe_Vxi4edQ-r5Yl7QbYpb5_ueVPkESzciaKb2TGF2f9emabzXDr3Me2dHD8595GQWhZ9gR9x3BUSA4L1y6NosScyEYOFjPpyW0SUywKkthxi030pYpRwDQ08xS/s1600/Side-blend.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWXU2pY5Cu-GDRqbyiCvDe_Vxi4edQ-r5Yl7QbYpb5_ueVPkESzciaKb2TGF2f9emabzXDr3Me2dHD8595GQWhZ9gR9x3BUSA4L1y6NosScyEYOFjPpyW0SUywKkthxi030pYpRwDQ08xS/s200/Side-blend.jpg" width="150" /></a><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj23DkASWQQc26GHRmpxjqLGzh3sY3qNnyAIX6Chd55S-1ZJso9UJ_vRkYfuWhiaIevHWV5WMCQYvVxpmUSTYLN_7_Y64zYJefC3X_41_1ngcm9RVTtYK5zJPWbWP7wVrRggeBDYxBfSOVc/s1600/Green.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj23DkASWQQc26GHRmpxjqLGzh3sY3qNnyAIX6Chd55S-1ZJso9UJ_vRkYfuWhiaIevHWV5WMCQYvVxpmUSTYLN_7_Y64zYJefC3X_41_1ngcm9RVTtYK5zJPWbWP7wVrRggeBDYxBfSOVc/s200/Green.jpg" width="150" /></a>Yesterday and today I had what I like to call "The Traditional with a Twist" <br />
Traditional: Spinach, strawberries, banana :::::: Twist: pieces of Ginger = really really good :)<br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhK7x4jaG_q8-9vCCUi-8BVkNILREYP8-GKATMMYH4ztaZx2-K_9s4Qx1rVzZyIf0uFU1GafvjW0efyhuGI_cTag3DadCYrJDRMCez-OTGQB1VWyNKcpc4S20eZIiWkxjysRqaVGXsKCZIT/s1600/Blender-mix.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhK7x4jaG_q8-9vCCUi-8BVkNILREYP8-GKATMMYH4ztaZx2-K_9s4Qx1rVzZyIf0uFU1GafvjW0efyhuGI_cTag3DadCYrJDRMCez-OTGQB1VWyNKcpc4S20eZIiWkxjysRqaVGXsKCZIT/s200/Blender-mix.jpg" width="150" /></a>And thought I'd share in the process through these pics.... I believe this smoothie was a<br />
Spinach, Swiss Chard, Rasberries, Pear, Blueberries, Banana Smoothie. <br />
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Anyone got a name for this one?? :)Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-45821532825256454462011-02-04T01:43:00.000-08:002011-02-04T01:54:28.262-08:00Thankfulness<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Graduating with my M.S. in Clinical Psychology</td></tr>
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: center;"> I think it's harder for me too add something in than take it away. Adding in meditation and smoothies not only means I have to make a conscious choice, but it also requires me to <span style="color: #ffd966;">make a conscious action</span>. Each day I've had the intention of starting my day with meditation, but instead I keep finding myself at night 'finally getting' to it. There is definitely resistance for me to enter into stillness yet every time I do I feel more connected to myself and life. </div><br />
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</tbody></table>Tonight I did something a little different::::: I repeated <span style="color: #ffd966;">thank you</span> for what felt like several minutes and as I did I saw flashes to different times in my life:: Hanging out with my mom and dad at the duck pond, When Jonathan was born, Tennis matches, deaths, friends faces, my sister and I talking about life, dancing around at Hidden Valley, the faces of the street vendors in Bali, The faces of the men and women in South Africa I spent time with, The classrooms in the Grad Psych building and all that came from that experience, My soul Arts group..........and on and on the flashes went.... I couldn't stop smiling. I <span style="color: #ffd966;">felt gratitude from deep within</span> for how life has moved and created and shaped me.... There was no good or bad... there was simply deep gratitude and an openness of connection. </div><br />
At the end I raised my hands and said again <span style="color: #ffd966;">Thank You::: I am honored to experience life! </span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Me, Mom, & Jonathan</td></tr>
</tbody></table>It's actually amazing to me all that I experienced in those 15 min. It was as if time didn't exist and there was a connection to life all at once.<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Funkhouse Girls :)</td></tr>
</tbody></table>What would happen if you repeated Thank You?<br />
What could 15min of meditation open in YOU??<br />
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And a quick smoothie update:::: I'm experimenting each day::: today I had a spinach, banana, parsley, cucumber, blueberry, strawberry, pear smoothie :) loved it!! :)Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-33489023087717590622011-02-01T23:58:00.000-08:002011-02-02T00:10:00.974-08:00February: Meditation & (Smoothies)<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh66au7LLlEwhCuGkzSBd-Td_qQ9lHfAhFXuYysO73EEnxAH_qZJsVUVVRzDpUHzixWVh6FUBBX1cGWHJIemfAbvTj2CvUs05PuKUeUFXiwP5tK8OE_R5ElJbpL6iq6E4TU8D5K93x9nF8L/s1600/meditation-sunset.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="202" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh66au7LLlEwhCuGkzSBd-Td_qQ9lHfAhFXuYysO73EEnxAH_qZJsVUVVRzDpUHzixWVh6FUBBX1cGWHJIemfAbvTj2CvUs05PuKUeUFXiwP5tK8OE_R5ElJbpL6iq6E4TU8D5K93x9nF8L/s320/meditation-sunset.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
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Originally February was going to be exercise for 30 minutes each day, but with my broken wrist I decided to switch things up. Since I'm forced to slow down a little, I figured<span style="color: yellow;"> </span><b style="color: yellow;"><i>reflection</i></b> for this next month would be key. And what better way to reflect than meditating for at least 15 min every day this month. <br />
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<div style="color: yellow;"><b><i>Meditation- continuous, reflection and profound contemplation or musing on a subject or series of subjects of a deep or abstruse nature. </i></b></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><br />
</span><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="cursor: default;"></span> </span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I've meditated a bit over the years, but still feel this is a learning practice for me. I would love to hear about the different ways you meditate... please feel free to share your experiences or thoughts on meditation as I'm rather curious to hear various ways of experiencing meditation. </span></span><br />
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</div><div class="dndata"></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><u>Thoughts going into this month</u></span><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="cursor: default;"></span> </span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I'm thinking I'd like my meditation to be in the morning.</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I wonder if I connect more during a certain time of day? </span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I wonder if 15 min will ever feel too short of a time?</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I wonder what I'll learn from quietening my space and being intentional?</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I wonder if I'll ever get passed my millions of racing thoughts?</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I wonder if certain 'methods' will appeal to me more?</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I wonder if anyone will join in with me? </span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><br />
</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I ended up meditating my 15 min tonight::: I mostly followed my breath and noticed all the millions of thoughts come and go... "What am I doing tomorrow?" Maybe I 'should' focus on something?" I wonder if anyone else is meditating right now?" Did I record Biggest Loser tonight?" I wonder if I'll meet any new people this month.".......................I will say this::even though my mind was racing my body felt very peaceful and relaxed! </span></span><br />
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<u style="color: yellow;"><b><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">Green Smoothies::::</span></span></b></u><br />
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<u style="color: yellow;"><b><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"> </span></span></b></u><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"> </span></span></div><div class="dndata"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8yAI8Zz_KhIx8FanaaSQ4pmF0knwyTbHBm_zhKGsubb3HqE4P_JbigiZbQnYjYKT5-ZHFX4WP-Jg9xdVLiw9FNOHZ8p206osjxS3lomvgPSGxCJjQwwobUrnQed3yD2vfTFXYIGWXFJQp/s1600/smoothie.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8yAI8Zz_KhIx8FanaaSQ4pmF0knwyTbHBm_zhKGsubb3HqE4P_JbigiZbQnYjYKT5-ZHFX4WP-Jg9xdVLiw9FNOHZ8p206osjxS3lomvgPSGxCJjQwwobUrnQed3yD2vfTFXYIGWXFJQp/s320/smoothie.jpg" width="220" /></a></div><div class="dndata"></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><br />
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</span></span></b></u></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">well this is secondary to meditating, but with my broken wrist comes the desire to eat healthy... so I figured I would also attempt to add one smoothie in each day.</span></span></div><div class="dndata"></div><div class="dndata">It's said that::::People who have introduced green smoothies in to their diets have reported many <span class="IL_AD" id="IL_AD2">health benefits</span>.... now I just need to read up on this and see what they are:::::<br />
<div style="color: yellow;"><b>What are Green Smoothies???? </b></div><b style="color: yellow;">Green smoothies are smoothies with greens blended through them.</b><span style="color: yellow;"> </span>Quite simple really. Greens are incredibly nutritious, however people struggle to eat enough of them with regard to quantity and many find them hard to digest. It has been suggested that this is due to not having enough stomach acid and not having enough jaw strength to chew them till they are a creamy consistency. <b style="color: yellow;">Blended greens have their structure ripped apart and are effectively pre-digested.</b><span style="color: yellow;"> </span> Adding fruit makes them taste great and is also a clever way of getting a lot of fruit into your diet, which most people don't have enough of in addition to enough greens.<span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"> </span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><br />
</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><b style="color: yellow;">Today</b> I had a:::: <i>spinach, strawberry, blueberry, banana, wheat grass smoothie</i>:: Deeeelish!!</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><br />
</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;">I'll be curious to see if these smoothies help with my healing as well as with my energy level.</span></span></div><div class="dndata"><span id="hotword"><span id="hotword" name="hotword" style="background-color: transparent; cursor: default;"><br />
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</a></div><h2 style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: small;"> I thought in closing on the first chapter of the 12~30 experiment I'd share a couple statistics that I learned. Did you know that About 17.6 million people in the United States-about one in every 12 adults-abuse alcohol or are alcoholic?!?! It's amazing to me how many people are in need of numbing the pain... I mean it is and it isn't, right?! And not to mention all the other millions of ways we choose to numb ourselves. Okay and this one really gets me :::Americans spend over $90 billion dollars total on alcohol each year. I really am curious as to how much money in a year I spend on alcohol. I can definitely say that my credit card bill is less for the month of January.</span></h2><h2 style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
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well I'll continue to drink and enjoy my glasses of wine with a friend... but I'd like to spend the rest of this year being conscious of when I drink, how much I spend on alcohol, and also if I'm ever choosing to have it to numb something in me.</span></h2>Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-53479247567256466442011-01-29T11:21:00.000-08:002011-01-29T11:21:56.627-08:00Almost there....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhS0Jp99EoQSVlzvZobt7HLUhE-Wwke-DqIrtpfgwhzSKyAanD4_QUHg69xhBAmDV-WgTjlW2kpyFByCGzta_cbkfCwAgAo8ty4aTmM4JSkgHLUJbLBdHvF1C4V19tRq2n9Usk6aPzZGFOb/s1600/almost+there.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhS0Jp99EoQSVlzvZobt7HLUhE-Wwke-DqIrtpfgwhzSKyAanD4_QUHg69xhBAmDV-WgTjlW2kpyFByCGzta_cbkfCwAgAo8ty4aTmM4JSkgHLUJbLBdHvF1C4V19tRq2n9Usk6aPzZGFOb/s320/almost+there.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
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It's January 29th, which means today is day 29 of not drinking. I must say the challenge for this month has been rather easy. There really has only been a few moments where a drink would've been ideal. I think what I'll take away from this month the most is to really think about whether or not I want that drink when I'm out... because truth for me is that I never really need it. It's also been nice saving money while out to eat and not to mention I choose restaurants that are in the two star category when I'm not drinking. Although it will be nice to go out to a nicer restaurant next month. One other thing I noticed was the only time I really had to make a conscious choice not to drink was when I was out with others that were drinking.... AND maybe when I broke my wrist.Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-55626325176136709252011-01-26T18:20:00.000-08:002011-01-26T18:20:41.796-08:00Pushing My Limits<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijNAhArZe1asbjg6S-QaDy2AnDczsYmSQihzVJslL_oEEvp7vr0vLMQrGmWLtBdO7O-FWjTW2lxFqq8r-FU5ZvTugETmXve3JRI7RZjV9z_fgUAyjwuADxTbhHW-K1XF8wxINpi3OfOevl/s1600/IMG_0938.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijNAhArZe1asbjg6S-QaDy2AnDczsYmSQihzVJslL_oEEvp7vr0vLMQrGmWLtBdO7O-FWjTW2lxFqq8r-FU5ZvTugETmXve3JRI7RZjV9z_fgUAyjwuADxTbhHW-K1XF8wxINpi3OfOevl/s320/IMG_0938.JPG" width="320" /></a></div>Okay.... so.... I must be trying to really challenge myself this month. Whatever I do I like to give a 100%...whether it be in sports, friendship, traveling, this experiment, or you name it. I'm wondering if I just wasn't feeling challenged enough this month with not drinking, so I figured I'd up the anti by breaking something??!!??<br />
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so here I was playing softball.... doing what I do:::... I had just hit a tripple and was now on third base waiting for a hit to send me home. the hit came and I ran hard... apparently a little too hard because when I hit home I ended up turning my run into a slide/roll... bracing myself with my wrist. I got up happy to know I was safe and just feeling the burning slightly on my knees and side from the slide. Walking back to the dugout I heard several, "oh my gosh! Are you ok?" Of course I said, "yeah, I'm fine!" Yet as I sat down I found my hands shaking... and I was still holding the bat from the previous hitter:::: so... my body was in a little bit of shock.<br />
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I finished the game playing three more innings, and even hitting another tripple... oh and I should mention I play first base, so most the plays come to me... and often the ball comes HARD!! After the game, which we ended up tying by the way... I walked over to give high-fives to the other team::: each one was like pain shooting through my body. It was then I knew my hand wasn't really fine. Let's just say If I've ever really wanted a drink this month... it was NOW!!!<br />
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The next day I went to the Dr. saying I don't think it's broken. Several minutes later he walks back in with the X-rays and says, "Well, you've fractured your scaphoid." And then the memory came of 12 years ago when I did this on my left hand. Annnnnnnd again I left ready for a drink.....<br />
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but the truth is my body is quite happy that I haven't been drinking as it's in better condition to tackle this healing... pain and all.<br />
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Oh and one more thing to add... typing takes forever, I'm like a chicken pecking away at each key.... A glass of wine right now sure would be nice...Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-37175087942207216182011-01-18T23:56:00.000-08:002011-01-18T23:56:47.960-08:00What I'm really missing<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHX6sBBg3hJ1ov7yfztZ7Wbh7mk1avPpg_i6whkn1bXfiR4j4vRSZfxvdLxJl4BpP1sP7r5chqY8JU-O_HlEB6MBm-NZ5HY0vQLTv7sT-jK9GyyctIM3BCsjqrJwlSvtxjyx8TMgD1vyib/s1600/eating_out_pic.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="204" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHX6sBBg3hJ1ov7yfztZ7Wbh7mk1avPpg_i6whkn1bXfiR4j4vRSZfxvdLxJl4BpP1sP7r5chqY8JU-O_HlEB6MBm-NZ5HY0vQLTv7sT-jK9GyyctIM3BCsjqrJwlSvtxjyx8TMgD1vyib/s320/eating_out_pic.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>It's January 18th... which means it's now been 18 days alcohol free. What I'm continuing to notice is how many events I go to that include drinking.... and are just part of the natural routine. But what I'm really missing... is splitting a bottle of wine with a friend!! Sitting and drinking water with someone at a restaurant just doesn't bring out the same experience. This brings me to my next point...I really enjoy going out to dinner and making it an <i><b>experience.</b></i> Starting off with a drink... talking... sipping...talking... drinking....and then maybe ordering an appetizer...while still enjoying my drinks.... talking... and then maybe order a salad... another drink... at this point we are probably an hour and a half into the evening.... and then after the waiter/waitress has come over several hundreds of times I finally say I'm ready to order. All and all it's around a 3 hour minimum experience. Let's just say I haven't had anything like that in over 18 days and THAT is what I'm missing!!! My dinner/lunch outings are lasting maybe 1 hour tops...and I mean tops!!! so ... so much for the dining experience... it's just not that fun right now.... so what am I supposed to do with this?? not sure yet.... Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-9740462172645206152011-01-11T19:03:00.000-08:002011-01-13T23:26:18.365-08:00What I've noticed<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPU0dPc1vgjBZNFSVXQin67tJNW6aqm1SkDvt6wVCN0oFEzROfrxVEmjuZi2wUYYH7f-f4T8jrgVsaRD42cWqE1zdI0zcE0fo7ul4IN_y0nyzXQha6odQnUOJcVTr0lAJ6iNOdD2Amx9AH/s1600/wine_965871.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgPU0dPc1vgjBZNFSVXQin67tJNW6aqm1SkDvt6wVCN0oFEzROfrxVEmjuZi2wUYYH7f-f4T8jrgVsaRD42cWqE1zdI0zcE0fo7ul4IN_y0nyzXQha6odQnUOJcVTr0lAJ6iNOdD2Amx9AH/s1600/wine_965871.jpg" /></a></div>okay.... so it's been 11 days no with no alcohol. In all honesty it's felt fairly easy to not drink. There have only been a few exceptions to that..where I had a slight cringe - like in the airport when I found out my flight was delayed for over four hours (I mean doesn't that make anyone want to drink!).... or when I recently went out of town to visit a friend that's been grieving and she wanted to drink and instead I had to say I'm not drinking... I think I ordered 5 waters.... which made me really happy when the bill came!<br />
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<u>thoughts so far:</u><br />
I like how much money I'm saving<br />
It's only in the moment I've felt bummed about passing on alcohol (wanting a glass of wine) <br />
After dinner I'm happy about my decision not to drink<br />
There is an element of social pressure that I just naturally drink when others are without thinking if I really want to or not.<br />
Alcohol is expensive<br />
I like not being woken up by wine in the middle of the night<br />
Fine...I'm missing a glass of wine... okay....maybe two...Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-17827507533569380372011-01-08T23:55:00.001-08:002011-01-13T23:19:41.619-08:00January::::<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwtPSHzTACNhneTF1iBzDaLI1WdX3vMcOgTy7LM7dmtHPULUTieqM72RSzeScYrXGIsDh65YEEfQmLT1QoZSyajMMSWVqx-AhbeSQK65b6wDJcyhVSpFBuEM8lWlT583PvYqpDTvR6VKl3/s1600/no-alcohol.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwtPSHzTACNhneTF1iBzDaLI1WdX3vMcOgTy7LM7dmtHPULUTieqM72RSzeScYrXGIsDh65YEEfQmLT1QoZSyajMMSWVqx-AhbeSQK65b6wDJcyhVSpFBuEM8lWlT583PvYqpDTvR6VKl3/s1600/no-alcohol.jpg" /></a></div>It's time to begin the experiment of the forming and breaking of habits. January is the month of no alcoholic beverages. Now the truth is I wouldn't say that alcohol has to be considered a bad habit and nor am I trying to start a debate on drinking or not drinking. In fact I wouldn't even say alcohol is a habit of mine. I mean I like to have a glass... or two of wine..okay okay sometimes three with a friend. There's also the fun nights out or meeting a friend for a drink... So why the reason for taking out alcohol???.... well simply put alcohol has affected those I deeply care about in not so positive ways....AND I'm under the belief that it's healthy to look at what we put into our bodies and the effects they have on us... With that said, I wanted to take this month to examine the role that alcohol plays in my life. I'm curious as to what will come up for me.... What emotions will I feel when I'm out with a few friends and they are drinking and I choose to drink water?? Has any part of having a glass of wine when I'm out at a nice dinner simply become routine?? How has it affected my energy level and emotions? Will I miss it??? And not to mention I wonder how much money I will save by not drinking??<br />
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There are many more questions I have... but mostly I'm just curious to see what comes up for me.Joey Paynterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01801608008831642577noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8688429301254108588.post-60135387989448494232010-12-21T17:35:00.000-08:002011-09-29T10:57:18.152-07:00The beginning of the 12~30 Experiment<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">Supposedly it takes 30 days to make or break a habit. Over the next twelve months I will be adding in and/or taking a way a habit. I am curious as to my reactions and feelings in this process... but mostly I'm really excited to have FUN with this and see what freeness awaits and even at times what traps I've created for myself....</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> As of now this will be a tentative schedule for each month. Let me know if you have any other ideas or if you want to share what it is you would like to add or take away in your months. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">January:: </span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">No Drinking alcohol for 30 days</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">February:: </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">Meditate for 15 min every day</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">March::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> 30 minutes in nature rain or shine</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">April::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">Saying I love you in the mirror several times</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">May::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">The Artist's Way: writing</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">June::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">July::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">No TV</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">August::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">Try Something new every day</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">September::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">No eating out at restaurants</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">N</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">ovember::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">Write in my journal every day</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">December::</span><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';"> </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'times new roman';">Create a new painting every day</span></div>
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